Yesterday:
It was never easy. I have gone tired of pretending and lying. I have gone tired of telling people that I'm fine when I'm not, that I'm happy when I'm not, that I've already gone through it all when I still haven't. I'm tired of faking a smile and forcing myself to laugh. I'm tired of being so kind to undeserving people. I'm tired of asking myself why I haven't tried one last more. I'm tired of answering questions when in fact, answers hurt me a lot. I'm tired of pretending to be not interested about the discreetness of somebody's whereabouts when it's already at the tip of my tongue to ask. I'm tired of being mad so much that it deprives me from genuine joy. I'm tired of myself because maybe, I can't accept the fact that I cannot control my own emotions. I can't accept the fact that I'm still on the process of climbing and yet everyone else is already at the other side of the mountain. I hate myself for not barfing it out, for not crying my heart out and for not letting it out. What pains me a lot is that when I love, I give my all and later, I'd end up in the middle of nowhere. I'm helpless or at least that's what I think. I may sound fine oftentimes but deep inside, I wanted to scream.
Today:
I don't want to waste my time being so sad just because some stupid freak has torn me apart. Because of these, I have become worse than I was before. Fortunately, it made me climb 'til the peak much easier. This is what they say that there will always be a rainbow after a rain, no matter how hard that rain was. When I thought I can't moved on, unconsciously, I already have. Easy come, easy go I guess.
Tomorrow:
I easily love and fall for people.That is something everybody can't seem to evade.I believed, I am not destined to be hurt. I was just a victim of my own crime. I know, it was just a way of telling me, "Hey scam, you deserve someone so much better than him." Or "Hey scam, he doesn't deserve you. You're too good for him." I have often told myself never to fall in love again but who knows? If I'll let myself fall again, I might find myself with someone I truly deserve. After all, I see no harm in taking chances because no one knows how great something could turn out to be. I took risk. Why not take risk again?
It was never easy. I have gone tired of pretending and lying. I have gone tired of telling people that I'm fine when I'm not, that I'm happy when I'm not, that I've already gone through it all when I still haven't. I'm tired of faking a smile and forcing myself to laugh. I'm tired of being so kind to undeserving people. I'm tired of asking myself why I haven't tried one last more. I'm tired of answering questions when in fact, answers hurt me a lot. I'm tired of pretending to be not interested about the discreetness of somebody's whereabouts when it's already at the tip of my tongue to ask. I'm tired of being mad so much that it deprives me from genuine joy. I'm tired of myself because maybe, I can't accept the fact that I cannot control my own emotions. I can't accept the fact that I'm still on the process of climbing and yet everyone else is already at the other side of the mountain. I hate myself for not barfing it out, for not crying my heart out and for not letting it out. What pains me a lot is that when I love, I give my all and later, I'd end up in the middle of nowhere. I'm helpless or at least that's what I think. I may sound fine oftentimes but deep inside, I wanted to scream.
Today:
I don't want to waste my time being so sad just because some stupid freak has torn me apart. Because of these, I have become worse than I was before. Fortunately, it made me climb 'til the peak much easier. This is what they say that there will always be a rainbow after a rain, no matter how hard that rain was. When I thought I can't moved on, unconsciously, I already have. Easy come, easy go I guess.
Tomorrow:
I easily love and fall for people.That is something everybody can't seem to evade.I believed, I am not destined to be hurt. I was just a victim of my own crime. I know, it was just a way of telling me, "Hey scam, you deserve someone so much better than him." Or "Hey scam, he doesn't deserve you. You're too good for him." I have often told myself never to fall in love again but who knows? If I'll let myself fall again, I might find myself with someone I truly deserve. After all, I see no harm in taking chances because no one knows how great something could turn out to be. I took risk. Why not take risk again?
